Rookie Error

"I robbed myself by ignoring what I saw and choosing to live in what I hoped. As a part of my recovery, I will no longer put on blinders when I see red flags” Sarah Jakes Roberts

There are many times when we see red flags and choose not to acknowledge them because of our desires. Sometimes our desire for control is so large that we make bad decisions which aren't aligned to God’s timing or purpose for our lives. Our desire for love, intimacy and affection pushes us to lie in a bed of bad decisions which in turn, end up breaking us.

I refer to these bad decisions as Rookie errors. A Rookie Error is defined as a basic mistake that a person with no experience of the activity would make. We make rookie errors in many areas of our lives especially when it comes to relationships.

What worsens the situation, is that we have this desire to honour the bad decisions that we have made, in hopes of somehow controlling the situation or eventually making it right. We make a commitment to our mistakes in hopes of somehow correcting them so that we don't have to deal with the burden of regret. Regretting the fact that we ignored the red flags, the signs and regretting that we went against the current.

Regretting the fact that we made: A Rookie error.

There's no bigger wake-up call, than to realise you aren't the person that you thought you were. It is difficult to come to terms with the mistakes you made while thinking you could handle things that you weren't supposed to. Being able to get to a point where you surrender control over your life to God is where breakthrough and restoration begins.

You need to remember that you are much further ahead than you used to be and that if you make a rookie error, it doesn't make you any less strong. Your mistakes do not undo all the progress that you have made and all the parts of your life that God has worked on.

You need to continually humble yourself and allow God to work on you. You need to be brave enough to welcome the pain of the lesson so that you can grow and learn from it.

We are all bound to make rookie errors but liberty and authenticity are found in forgiving yourself and more importantly, receiving the grace that he has for you and your mistakes.

You are so human, you are so human.

Anesu Mautsa